recuperating.....

still sick.... had been trying to sleep, but i tink i've slept so much that i can't sleep anymore!!! so, life is just... boring... just working on my LP and pwpt til i'm goggy, den its food and food and more food... gosh, how can a sick person eat so much? i dunno.. but apparently it happens!!! now i noe wat they mean by 'starve a fever, feed a flu'... would i prefer the former (since it helps me lose a few pounds? *chuckle*) nah... i'd rather be well!! its just funny how my ML gals keep wanting to be sick, or in hospital, etc.. just so they don't have to go to school, and get people to give them attention. no matter how i try to explain to them that we really need to be thankful for good health, well... i dun blame them. when i was their age, i also thought of being in hospital, etc.. so pple can come and pity me and care for me. *chuckle* hope they will outgrow that soon and learn to be thankful!!

missed the seminar in the day cos there wasn't any way i cld have gone out in that condition. in the afternoon, i almost missed my session with the ML gals. but i just couldn't leave them alone. when i went out, i was still so stoned i don't noe what was going around me. *chuckle* but thankfully, the walk out did do me some good. in church, something really sweet happened. when the gals knew i was sick but couldn't bear to leave them with another group (cos we are one week behind time... :-P) they actually gathered together and said "Thank you Xueting.." i was like... 'huh? wat for?' i mean.. i felt appreciated. sometimes they look so bored or blur during the sessions i wondered if i was doing them any good.. but what they did... really made my day... :)

so wats with today? hmm.... 'idleness' and 'fulfilment'. 'Idleness' because i'm so unproductive, hardly have anything done. cldn't even sleep anymore simply because i slept too much, but yet can't really work cos i get a headache.. so basically, i'm bored doing... nothing... 'Fulfilment' because i feel like what i've put in does matter. and that... we can do so much (or little, but at least something) in other people's lives.

more LP tonite... i'm doing it by faith that i'll recover by monday to conduct the classes. just hoping i'll be well enough to play the flute for service tom....