sometimes saying no to something u'll used to jump at is what you have to do...
i just got an interesting lobang from AG on msn. $100 for dressing up nice and ushering awardees up and down the stage for a corporate function held in a posh hotel.
Reasons y i can and shld take tis up:
1. i'm an experience junkie (this itself is the most valid and fundamental reason).
2. i own a nice long black dress that 'under-worn'. and black dress is the dress code.
3. i happen to 'fit the bill'. i tink they wan tall peeps.
4. i dun hv anything concrete planned (with the exception of hanging out with FM. this itself is the one of the two most important reasons i had to say no.)
i called FM to hear his comments. he sounded hesitant. he thot the money was too little for the hours clocked in. (for me its the experience). it sounds bimbotic to him. (it is, den again, i'm an experience junkie). but he's a sweetie. when i kindof sound like i really wanna do it, he said i could.
tis is when the application of 'when you are attached ...sometimes saying no to something u'll used to jump at is what you have to do...' takes place. its not easy. but life's like that. u get involved with someone, u no longer live for urself. there are sacrifices that need to be made. this is not huge. but tis is not wat i'd NORMALLY hv done. in any case, i do want to spend the time with him, esp after a long week.
life has changed....
Friday, February 22, 2008
Tuesday, February 19, 2008
i made a difference in someone's life!!
Just a little bit. But its so kewl it made my day. My honors classmate Wai2 texted me yest to announce he's getting married and was sending out invites. So I asked him who the lucky gal was. His reply was:
"Tks. Its someone i met on yep, which you sent me to. So i should thank you in a way. Not to worry, you are with hons class ppl table. pls sms me your address."
It brought back memories of my encouraging to go try out some other stuff, go see other cultures and see how he could help ppl from other countries. I remembered talking to him abt it in the honors room. I remembered persuading him when we were doing our field research in melaka. I remembered helping him with the contact with my fren for the trip. that was maybe 5 / 6 yrs back. neva thot today.... WOW... i'm SO HAPPY!! *grins* I just hope he noes Jesus too!!
Anyway, speaking of 'flashbacks', here's an account of another person's flashback involving me! Another one i heard today that makes me smile. Its quite farnie.
I was having dinner with FM. We were talking abt his work and he mentioned his working out the MTP for the graduating levels. And he told me he remembered this episode tt occurred last year (which i have no recollection).
"It was MTP for S4E/5 2007. I was asked for by a parent. As i was teaching another lvl den, a prefect had to go get me. So according to FM, he was on his way from the hall to the staffroom, and i was at the lockers outside the staffroom on the way to the hall. He saw me, signaled to me that my presence was requested in the hall. I nodded back in response to signal i noe and was on my way there and smiled back."
My next response was... you noticed me then oredi!! ha ha.. and he said yeah... that's pretty farnie. its farnie how things in life turns out...
FINALLY, the most recent saga in my life is : to wear braces or not. ppl ard me hv been bugging me. my sis 'scared' me. my mom's nagging at me. mommy es says go and do it. FM's agreeable. oh gosh.....
"Tks. Its someone i met on yep, which you sent me to. So i should thank you in a way. Not to worry, you are with hons class ppl table. pls sms me your address."
It brought back memories of my encouraging to go try out some other stuff, go see other cultures and see how he could help ppl from other countries. I remembered talking to him abt it in the honors room. I remembered persuading him when we were doing our field research in melaka. I remembered helping him with the contact with my fren for the trip. that was maybe 5 / 6 yrs back. neva thot today.... WOW... i'm SO HAPPY!! *grins* I just hope he noes Jesus too!!
Anyway, speaking of 'flashbacks', here's an account of another person's flashback involving me! Another one i heard today that makes me smile. Its quite farnie.
I was having dinner with FM. We were talking abt his work and he mentioned his working out the MTP for the graduating levels. And he told me he remembered this episode tt occurred last year (which i have no recollection).
"It was MTP for S4E/5 2007. I was asked for by a parent. As i was teaching another lvl den, a prefect had to go get me. So according to FM, he was on his way from the hall to the staffroom, and i was at the lockers outside the staffroom on the way to the hall. He saw me, signaled to me that my presence was requested in the hall. I nodded back in response to signal i noe and was on my way there and smiled back."
My next response was... you noticed me then oredi!! ha ha.. and he said yeah... that's pretty farnie. its farnie how things in life turns out...
FINALLY, the most recent saga in my life is : to wear braces or not. ppl ard me hv been bugging me. my sis 'scared' me. my mom's nagging at me. mommy es says go and do it. FM's agreeable. oh gosh.....
Wednesday, February 06, 2008
already done bulk of the 'visiting' on CNY eve
today's CNY eve. tis morn i got up at 5 plus am again (have been waking up at 8tish, 9nish) to go back to sch to visit my ex-colleagues (inspired by dinner with some of them) and see some of the students who are still in school.(the first batch i've been thro since they were S1 has graduated. soon, no students in the sch will noe me.)
the CNY program was... well, usual (i noe a lot of efforts' gone into it), hving been thro 3 of them. but it was great to catch up with pple i used to work with, mull thro tiring times with, laugh abt silly jokes... a quick list of pple i've spoken w: haz, sok hoon, nair, hui cheng, cik zulaika, lian, colleen, deepa, janet (tr aide), anguila, ad ong, tess, intan, audrey, en chee, 3b1'07, mrs tay bee kee, mrs judy wong, mdm poon, puspha, some geog (and non-geog students of '07 batch) ... said quick hi to huihuang, tang, thomson, jacob,peck hoon, ... pple i missed cos they've left or taking break include mrs aw, marilyn, baljeet, mildred....
its really nice to be in touch... :)
every yr, the guzheng tuan performed. tis yr, without fail. i rem last yr, i commented to a certain teacher sitting beside me that, the previous batch's ensemble leader (who usually sits at the foremost section of the set up whom i've taught before and i therefore had encounters with) was no longer there as she has graduated. It felt strange to see the first batch of students i've taught for at least a year, and worked with in performances not there and moving on. I think i teared. This year, once again, the girls i remembered as the seniors and leaders of last yr's group i;ve seen through school concerts no longer there. This happens year after year. But next yr onwards, even if i do visit, it wld no longer hv that nostalgic feeling anymore cos i no longer hv encounters with them. its such a surreal feeling.
after tt, there was a kalimantan 'reunion'. ping's in town, so we all met up for lunch (most of us who are in town).
so tt's so much for my past 11 waking hours. nice... :)
the CNY program was... well, usual (i noe a lot of efforts' gone into it), hving been thro 3 of them. but it was great to catch up with pple i used to work with, mull thro tiring times with, laugh abt silly jokes... a quick list of pple i've spoken w: haz, sok hoon, nair, hui cheng, cik zulaika, lian, colleen, deepa, janet (tr aide), anguila, ad ong, tess, intan, audrey, en chee, 3b1'07, mrs tay bee kee, mrs judy wong, mdm poon, puspha, some geog (and non-geog students of '07 batch) ... said quick hi to huihuang, tang, thomson, jacob,peck hoon, ... pple i missed cos they've left or taking break include mrs aw, marilyn, baljeet, mildred....
its really nice to be in touch... :)
every yr, the guzheng tuan performed. tis yr, without fail. i rem last yr, i commented to a certain teacher sitting beside me that, the previous batch's ensemble leader (who usually sits at the foremost section of the set up whom i've taught before and i therefore had encounters with) was no longer there as she has graduated. It felt strange to see the first batch of students i've taught for at least a year, and worked with in performances not there and moving on. I think i teared. This year, once again, the girls i remembered as the seniors and leaders of last yr's group i;ve seen through school concerts no longer there. This happens year after year. But next yr onwards, even if i do visit, it wld no longer hv that nostalgic feeling anymore cos i no longer hv encounters with them. its such a surreal feeling.
after tt, there was a kalimantan 'reunion'. ping's in town, so we all met up for lunch (most of us who are in town).
so tt's so much for my past 11 waking hours. nice... :)
Monday, February 04, 2008
Friday, February 01, 2008
downloading....
just thot i'll add a quick (but long) update while the other window's downloading some of the pieces in the LTCL list.
its been quite an up and down week....
just sunday, we went on a yacht to celebrate Fel and Mk's engagement. while there, i chatted w DF and heard tt some of my ex-students actually liked me! tt was so nice to hear... so tt was quite an up.
oh, on the same day, FM and i went to take photos with his black metal casing on four wheels cos he's getting a new white metal casing on four wheels too. it was fun....
den a major down. the impending return of my sis finally arrived on the 29th jan. even before that, my mom oredi made physical shifts (even tho her dear princess hvn't even board the plane from the states yet). i was particularly upset cos of how i perceived the favoritism. whilst i noe tt she loves us both a lot, its still painful to hv to leave thro this again and again, the preferential treatment to the other party. it was so painful i cried everyday. i tried ignoring my mom. but tt made it more painful... sigh... usual thots of moving came into the pic. its just a phase i hv to go thro each time she 'returns'. sounds like she's worse than terminator. terminator says "i will be back"... once? hers neva ends... lol...need a miracle...
another down... feel sick again. last two days were so bad. yest i went to FM's place.. just to nap for a couple of hours. ha ha. i guess tt helped in the recovery. i'm feeling better now. still sleepy... but better. strange how u become a sleeping monster when u are sick... i still dun really understd the rationale. (yeah, i noe its for body to recuperate, so it can focus on fighting virus, but to be sleeping all the time... much more than the required 8 hrs/day.. i still dun get it).
got reports from my students who received their O level results. the batch tt i've seen grow from S1 all the way. most of the reports came in with A2s. 50% distinction for pure geog. so i'm happy. i really miss my students. i really miss teaching. a couple of nights ago, i dreamt of talking to some of the gals i taught. i really really missed that.....
speaking of which, my ex-boss tried to entice me (and another fren of mine who left early last year) to return to the system. ex-boss tried to remind me how 'noble' the job is. it is indeed rewarding, minus the award and meritous chasing system, minus the expected altruistic but run in a corporate manner system (how do they come together??). guess wat was used as the carrot? a "to spring up and develop to maturity" / "to increase in size by assimilation of material into the living organism or by accretion of material in a nonbiological process " / "to develop from a parent source " / "to pass into a condition " package. thanks for reminding me that it pays well. and its gonna pay better. whilst i miss the stable income i used to get, i miss the times i spend with my kids more in the past, but i noe if i continue in the system, i'll also end up with less time for them... so i'll give it for a pass for now.. until perhaps i've reached the age where they stop trying to push me to climb.
meanwhile, i've really gotten loads of food... pineapple tarts, bah kwa, prawn rolls, choc cake i baked for FM's bday... but cant consume as fast cos of the cold/flu... ha ha... plus sleeping a lot.. i think i'm putting on pounds AGAIN!
oh oh... and here are the pics of one of the bday treats i gave to FM. he really liked them! :)
this one's my (and his) favorite:
anywayz, tt's the end of this long long post... and let's hope i'll choose the suitable pieces for my LTCL.. and let's hope i'll pass it... *fingers-crossed* + a lot of work coming up.
its been quite an up and down week....
just sunday, we went on a yacht to celebrate Fel and Mk's engagement. while there, i chatted w DF and heard tt some of my ex-students actually liked me! tt was so nice to hear... so tt was quite an up.
oh, on the same day, FM and i went to take photos with his black metal casing on four wheels cos he's getting a new white metal casing on four wheels too. it was fun....
den a major down. the impending return of my sis finally arrived on the 29th jan. even before that, my mom oredi made physical shifts (even tho her dear princess hvn't even board the plane from the states yet). i was particularly upset cos of how i perceived the favoritism. whilst i noe tt she loves us both a lot, its still painful to hv to leave thro this again and again, the preferential treatment to the other party. it was so painful i cried everyday. i tried ignoring my mom. but tt made it more painful... sigh... usual thots of moving came into the pic. its just a phase i hv to go thro each time she 'returns'. sounds like she's worse than terminator. terminator says "i will be back"... once? hers neva ends... lol...need a miracle...
another down... feel sick again. last two days were so bad. yest i went to FM's place.. just to nap for a couple of hours. ha ha. i guess tt helped in the recovery. i'm feeling better now. still sleepy... but better. strange how u become a sleeping monster when u are sick... i still dun really understd the rationale. (yeah, i noe its for body to recuperate, so it can focus on fighting virus, but to be sleeping all the time... much more than the required 8 hrs/day.. i still dun get it).
got reports from my students who received their O level results. the batch tt i've seen grow from S1 all the way. most of the reports came in with A2s. 50% distinction for pure geog. so i'm happy. i really miss my students. i really miss teaching. a couple of nights ago, i dreamt of talking to some of the gals i taught. i really really missed that.....
speaking of which, my ex-boss tried to entice me (and another fren of mine who left early last year) to return to the system. ex-boss tried to remind me how 'noble' the job is. it is indeed rewarding, minus the award and meritous chasing system, minus the expected altruistic but run in a corporate manner system (how do they come together??). guess wat was used as the carrot? a "to spring up and develop to maturity" / "to increase in size by assimilation of material into the living organism or by accretion of material in a nonbiological process " / "to develop from a parent source " / "to pass into a condition " package. thanks for reminding me that it pays well. and its gonna pay better. whilst i miss the stable income i used to get, i miss the times i spend with my kids more in the past, but i noe if i continue in the system, i'll also end up with less time for them... so i'll give it for a pass for now.. until perhaps i've reached the age where they stop trying to push me to climb.
meanwhile, i've really gotten loads of food... pineapple tarts, bah kwa, prawn rolls, choc cake i baked for FM's bday... but cant consume as fast cos of the cold/flu... ha ha... plus sleeping a lot.. i think i'm putting on pounds AGAIN!
oh oh... and here are the pics of one of the bday treats i gave to FM. he really liked them! :)
this one's my (and his) favorite:
anywayz, tt's the end of this long long post... and let's hope i'll choose the suitable pieces for my LTCL.. and let's hope i'll pass it... *fingers-crossed* + a lot of work coming up.
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