my dear class got really... noisy and rude during class presentation time. i was so tired i gave up scolding them during the presentations. i ended the presentations before they were completed, instructed them to go to the open space outside when i spoke to them. asked them to rate themselves. out of 1o, wat score did their behavior warrant them. they said... most settled for 4 or 5.... asked them y.. they cld tell me the reasons.. sighz.... tried speaking to them.. whether it got in.. is another issue.. sighz... told them tt sometimes teachers do tink tt gals from NA are hopeless.. but its cos of their behavior.. and i dun tink they're hopeless which was the reason y i spoke to them.. den they started complaining abt other teachers scolding them hopeless and stupid.. when can they see tt... they are responsible for their behavior? *sighz*
two of my sec 3 na class music students looked at me with tied hair (i rarely tie up my hair)... 'cher, u shldn't tie up ur hair.. makes u look auntie...' i just looked at her and the gal beside her.. tinking 'watever.... anywayz, not quite polite to tell teacher tat... ' then the gal beside looked intently at me and said... 'cher if ur complexion is better, i tink u will be v pretty'... sighz... do i care?
finalyl got my notebook.. its an iMac... guess wats the best part? ;) its got.. uh hmm... tt program i always wanted to have!!! (to noe wat prog, ask.. ) pretty cool.. but i still feel a little silly cos i dun quite noe how to operate apple... well, not yet.
home earlier. cabbed home cos i was ehxasuted.. plus rain.. plus plus plus ... moody... its a cold day!! for singapore, its cold today. been marking for the past few hours. gave up.. cos i got really REALLY bored... feeling quite restless... is it cos i'm going on the dive tom ? or is it the thot tt i hv to bring my marking w me during the dive (which completely broke my rule of just play during dive trips)? or is it the piles and piles of marking coming in..? or is it the small little marks... marking... etc i hv to submit soon? I DUNNO!!!! just feeling.. really restless... man......
Thursday, September 30, 2004
Tuesday, September 28, 2004
heartache.....
of late, i've experienced a slight heartache as and when. but that is no issue, since i've found my brains.
tis afternn... i experience a heartache of a different sort. while trying to iron out some disagreements between some gals due to a grp project i set them to do some time ago, i saw a gal with marks of shallow cuts on her arm...
i spoke to her alone. she teared. my heart went out to her as i held her hand. i did not noe wat to say.. i did not noe wat to tink.. i felt inadequate to handle the situation cos i din noe wat are the actual factors/causes ... i almost teared a little.. but i noe i cldn't.. heard of it so much.. even where i'm teaching.. but encountering one... touching one's hand like that for myself... my heart ached... these people.. they need the LORD so much...
yet at the same time pple tell me life is short.. enjoy it.. dun tink too much... sighz.
tis afternn... i experience a heartache of a different sort. while trying to iron out some disagreements between some gals due to a grp project i set them to do some time ago, i saw a gal with marks of shallow cuts on her arm...
i spoke to her alone. she teared. my heart went out to her as i held her hand. i did not noe wat to say.. i did not noe wat to tink.. i felt inadequate to handle the situation cos i din noe wat are the actual factors/causes ... i almost teared a little.. but i noe i cldn't.. heard of it so much.. even where i'm teaching.. but encountering one... touching one's hand like that for myself... my heart ached... these people.. they need the LORD so much...
yet at the same time pple tell me life is short.. enjoy it.. dun tink too much... sighz.
Sunday, September 26, 2004
Eventful Day
last minute got a call from SN. Vuthy is in town, from cambodia. so met up w him for lunch. always good to see Vuthy with his beautiful smile. :)
got to see G for a while en route to Gill. Poor gal, she's kindof overworked and really tired. good thing her break is coming... :) her break time.. will be the start of my marking season... lol
went to Gill.. met up w pple.. buddy, xiaomei, some familiar faces and a couple of new ones. nice.
went for the talk on coral spawning w EW. Man last min the rest of those who were supposed to turn up played us out. Supposed to be 5, left 2. *sighz* in anycase, bumped into DR there. Only after i attended the talk den did i realize... i dunno many things abt corals!! yeah.. learnt geographical stuff abt them in sec sch.. but the biological part... still a little confused. LOL.
met sandfly at the place where the talk was held. den went for salsa course. it was so-so. i tink the guys there hv to learn how to 'lead' if not it becomes hard for the gals too. but its not easy, considering its the first lesson... and also given not everyone has a good sense of rhythm, so they cant really come in (but they have to lead?!?) in anycase, i myself suck at psychomotor skills.. so i dun fare too well too... cant do/feel the watever tension thing they were talking abt... #*@&#(* lol
J was very sweet. she picked me up from the dance center to go to DL's place for her housewarming. met more new pple.. ate a lot of food (wats new...) happy for her.
joined the divers for a KOK session. but i left within a short while cos tom hv to be up early to play for morn service. while Es was driving me there.. she helped me 'tackled' a problem by telling me wat words to use to pple.. boy she's good w words. lol... anywayz, those worked! also, she told me something which came as a surprise to me... sighz... @#*$&(#
now.. time to sleep.... its been an eventful day. no work done.. but eventful enough.. i tink that's enough. i need a break. lol.. nites
got to see G for a while en route to Gill. Poor gal, she's kindof overworked and really tired. good thing her break is coming... :) her break time.. will be the start of my marking season... lol
went to Gill.. met up w pple.. buddy, xiaomei, some familiar faces and a couple of new ones. nice.
went for the talk on coral spawning w EW. Man last min the rest of those who were supposed to turn up played us out. Supposed to be 5, left 2. *sighz* in anycase, bumped into DR there. Only after i attended the talk den did i realize... i dunno many things abt corals!! yeah.. learnt geographical stuff abt them in sec sch.. but the biological part... still a little confused. LOL.
met sandfly at the place where the talk was held. den went for salsa course. it was so-so. i tink the guys there hv to learn how to 'lead' if not it becomes hard for the gals too. but its not easy, considering its the first lesson... and also given not everyone has a good sense of rhythm, so they cant really come in (but they have to lead?!?) in anycase, i myself suck at psychomotor skills.. so i dun fare too well too... cant do/feel the watever tension thing they were talking abt... #*@&#(* lol
J was very sweet. she picked me up from the dance center to go to DL's place for her housewarming. met more new pple.. ate a lot of food (wats new...) happy for her.
joined the divers for a KOK session. but i left within a short while cos tom hv to be up early to play for morn service. while Es was driving me there.. she helped me 'tackled' a problem by telling me wat words to use to pple.. boy she's good w words. lol... anywayz, those worked! also, she told me something which came as a surprise to me... sighz... @#*$&(#
now.. time to sleep.... its been an eventful day. no work done.. but eventful enough.. i tink that's enough. i need a break. lol.. nites
Wednesday, September 22, 2004
Monday, September 20, 2004
Thank you EC
Thanks for your pollution song.. Really hilarious!! definitely something i'll listen to when i'm blue... *smile* appreciate it heaps.
Things not as 'fantastic'... but it sure brightens up w frens like ya... :)
Things not as 'fantastic'... but it sure brightens up w frens like ya... :)
Its a good day and I thank the Lord for that.
well...
generally there are the ups and downs...
ups from students...
downs from sudden arrows shot in tis direction which may very likely jeopardize one weekend dive trip i intend to go on. okiez.. its 99% gone.
heard from a fren a piece of 'interesting' news. just taking the news as it comes. not surprised to hear it. its something i'll hear eventually. thankfully... i'm okiez. :)
so... its a good day and i thank the Lord for that...
generally there are the ups and downs...
ups from students...
downs from sudden arrows shot in tis direction which may very likely jeopardize one weekend dive trip i intend to go on. okiez.. its 99% gone.
heard from a fren a piece of 'interesting' news. just taking the news as it comes. not surprised to hear it. its something i'll hear eventually. thankfully... i'm okiez. :)
so... its a good day and i thank the Lord for that...
Friday, September 17, 2004
A week in a teacher's life... ...
7 points for 7 days
1. Geography and English Exam papers more or less vetted and nearing printing press.
2. More or less finished marking CME exam papers minus those absentees who have to sit for their exams.
3. Spoke to a few gals abt their behavior. One of which - the gals copied work BLINDLY. Qns 1 - 10 can be from Passage A, and Qns 11 - 16 from Passage B. AND the spelling and gramatical errors are EXACTLY the same... write down to the smallest atom. How can they claim it is group work? Yeah, sure, group copy work? *laughs*
4. Got 'scolded' by a parent for over 20 minutes. It is tough. People think it is easy being the teacher. Worse, they shaft all the blame to teachers. *sighz* I'm glad not all parents are like that, and that I have nice colleagues to rally behind me to support me. Tho... the call spoilt my mood for a while... but as i've learnt, life goes on. There are things I can control, there are those I cant. There are things that matter, there are those which matter less. *smile* Life goes on.. for the important.
5. Had a short chat with two of the gals I brought for the music IT competition. It was nice. They told me their seniors think that generally I'm nice. Even one gal told me her seniors said I taught geography well. I'm like?!?!?! With the poor quality of materials I produce...?!?! But it was encouraging. *smile*
6. I am still learning how to tackle 'uninterested', 'you suck', 'i cannot be bothered with you' faces... still get discouraged seeing these faces. Still learning...
7. Point for reflection: How 'smiley' a teacher should I be? Esp the first time I meet a class (Esp lower sec)
1. Geography and English Exam papers more or less vetted and nearing printing press.
2. More or less finished marking CME exam papers minus those absentees who have to sit for their exams.
3. Spoke to a few gals abt their behavior. One of which - the gals copied work BLINDLY. Qns 1 - 10 can be from Passage A, and Qns 11 - 16 from Passage B. AND the spelling and gramatical errors are EXACTLY the same... write down to the smallest atom. How can they claim it is group work? Yeah, sure, group copy work? *laughs*
4. Got 'scolded' by a parent for over 20 minutes. It is tough. People think it is easy being the teacher. Worse, they shaft all the blame to teachers. *sighz* I'm glad not all parents are like that, and that I have nice colleagues to rally behind me to support me. Tho... the call spoilt my mood for a while... but as i've learnt, life goes on. There are things I can control, there are those I cant. There are things that matter, there are those which matter less. *smile* Life goes on.. for the important.
5. Had a short chat with two of the gals I brought for the music IT competition. It was nice. They told me their seniors think that generally I'm nice. Even one gal told me her seniors said I taught geography well. I'm like?!?!?! With the poor quality of materials I produce...?!?! But it was encouraging. *smile*
6. I am still learning how to tackle 'uninterested', 'you suck', 'i cannot be bothered with you' faces... still get discouraged seeing these faces. Still learning...
7. Point for reflection: How 'smiley' a teacher should I be? Esp the first time I meet a class (Esp lower sec)
Sunday, September 12, 2004
Life Goes On......
when happy things happen...
life goes on....
when disappointing things happen...
life goes on....
whether or not i am prepared to face up to tomorrow...
life goes on....
In short.....
life goes on.... face it....
life goes on....
when disappointing things happen...
life goes on....
whether or not i am prepared to face up to tomorrow...
life goes on....
In short.....
life goes on.... face it....
Saturday, September 11, 2004
Some random conversations
Venue: Staffroom
Time: Sept 11, 2004, Approx 11 am
TS: So are you prepared for school?
Me: Prepared or not still have to face it. School's still reopenning soon, does it matter? Just face it lor.
Venue: Along the river, Boat Quay
Time: Sept 10, 2004, Approx 1015pm
Me: I just realize I've actually met quite a couple of guys tis year, comparatively more than in previous years.. but alas, all the wrong ones... how tiring...
EV: Yeah, we always meet the wrong ones...
Venue: In AG's van
Time: Sept 11, 2004, Approx 1215am
AG: Actually in army its very free. They don't do much. Regulars have a lot of time. Still get paid loads.
Me tinks to myself: &@*#% all civil service.. but y so different?
Communication Mode: Email
Time: Sept 9, 2004, Approx 12pm
EW: i'm going for another dive over d weekend... was thinking if u would go for another dive over d next weekend,take it as i chio u, how???
Time: Sept 10, 2004, Approx 3pm
Me: thanks for d invitation for d dive. i'd love to. but two major factors.1. i dun print money. maybe if i find a rich old man who's gonna kickd bucket soon.. sure, i'll dive every week. LOL.2. i dun hv d time. attached to a CCA tt's got me stuck in sch allsats. well, den again, maybe if i find a rich old man who's gonna kickd bucket soon who can pay up my bond, y not? den i'll get him to godiving too... den he'll kick d bucket in the sea and.. MUA HA HA HA...
Venue: Swing, Near Centerpoint
Time: 8 Sept, 2004, Approx 11pm
Me: Since when do you start smoking? Neva seen you smoke all these years.
FL: Since I was 14. Now that my bf smokes, its not helping...
Communication Mode: MSN
Time: 11 Sept, 2004, Approx 9pm
EC: eh comment on my blog leh, no one has commented yet
Me: LOL since when u wan tis kindof attention one. I setting exam paper. Later....
HA HA... dun kill me EC. ;) Just felt like putting urs in. :-P
Time: Sept 11, 2004, Approx 11 am
TS: So are you prepared for school?
Me: Prepared or not still have to face it. School's still reopenning soon, does it matter? Just face it lor.
Venue: Along the river, Boat Quay
Time: Sept 10, 2004, Approx 1015pm
Me: I just realize I've actually met quite a couple of guys tis year, comparatively more than in previous years.. but alas, all the wrong ones... how tiring...
EV: Yeah, we always meet the wrong ones...
Venue: In AG's van
Time: Sept 11, 2004, Approx 1215am
AG: Actually in army its very free. They don't do much. Regulars have a lot of time. Still get paid loads.
Me tinks to myself: &@*#% all civil service.. but y so different?
Communication Mode: Email
Time: Sept 9, 2004, Approx 12pm
EW: i'm going for another dive over d weekend... was thinking if u would go for another dive over d next weekend,take it as i chio u, how???
Time: Sept 10, 2004, Approx 3pm
Me: thanks for d invitation for d dive. i'd love to. but two major factors.1. i dun print money. maybe if i find a rich old man who's gonna kickd bucket soon.. sure, i'll dive every week. LOL.2. i dun hv d time. attached to a CCA tt's got me stuck in sch allsats. well, den again, maybe if i find a rich old man who's gonna kickd bucket soon who can pay up my bond, y not? den i'll get him to godiving too... den he'll kick d bucket in the sea and.. MUA HA HA HA...
Venue: Swing, Near Centerpoint
Time: 8 Sept, 2004, Approx 11pm
Me: Since when do you start smoking? Neva seen you smoke all these years.
FL: Since I was 14. Now that my bf smokes, its not helping...
Communication Mode: MSN
Time: 11 Sept, 2004, Approx 9pm
EC: eh comment on my blog leh, no one has commented yet
Me: LOL since when u wan tis kindof attention one. I setting exam paper. Later....
HA HA... dun kill me EC. ;) Just felt like putting urs in. :-P
Thursday, September 09, 2004
of junk... and food....
check out wat i had within the past 24 hours from 7pm yest to 7pm today:
- popcorns (salted and sweet)
- amos cookies
- KFC (crispy)
- frozen magaritta
- more cookies for breakfast
- kueh dadah, sandine puff and dunno wat malay kueh kueh
- jap food (the only healthy meal!!)
- Mackies strawberry shake
- OO-jian (fried oyster)
- an entire plate of sea haarm (by myself!)
- some fish keropok
- two servings of fried chicken skin (i've found the place to buy fried ckn skin without having to eat the meat like in kfc!!! absolutely fabulous... and sinful...)
well.. these doesn't include the more than one entire big mooncake i finished just before that 24 hours begun...... hmmm.......
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- popcorns (salted and sweet)
- amos cookies
- KFC (crispy)
- frozen magaritta
- more cookies for breakfast
- kueh dadah, sandine puff and dunno wat malay kueh kueh
- jap food (the only healthy meal!!)
- Mackies strawberry shake
- OO-jian (fried oyster)
- an entire plate of sea haarm (by myself!)
- some fish keropok
- two servings of fried chicken skin (i've found the place to buy fried ckn skin without having to eat the meat like in kfc!!! absolutely fabulous... and sinful...)
well.. these doesn't include the more than one entire big mooncake i finished just before that 24 hours begun...... hmmm.......
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Wednesday, September 08, 2004
Life since I was back ....
Monday -
1. marking
2. marking
3. marking
4. some karaoke session w pple who went on the dive
(no, i dun sing, its for the company and break out of marking)
Tuesday -
1. extra class w my sec threes
2. setting term four test
3. setting exam
4. setting exam
5. setting exam
6. getting a little irritated with a fren i got to noe over the dive trip
7. setting exam
8. catching up on emails
9. setting exam
10. catching up w some frens online
11. setting exam
Today?
1 - 10 . setting exam
11. @#(*^$ some silly 'socializing' meeting a more senior teacher w the other new teachers. yes, teachers have to socialize to... @#*$&#*
1. marking
2. marking
3. marking
4. some karaoke session w pple who went on the dive
(no, i dun sing, its for the company and break out of marking)
Tuesday -
1. extra class w my sec threes
2. setting term four test
3. setting exam
4. setting exam
5. setting exam
6. getting a little irritated with a fren i got to noe over the dive trip
7. setting exam
8. catching up on emails
9. setting exam
10. catching up w some frens online
11. setting exam
Today?
1 - 10 . setting exam
11. @#(*^$ some silly 'socializing' meeting a more senior teacher w the other new teachers. yes, teachers have to socialize to... @#*$&#*
Sunday, September 05, 2004
God's forgiving grace....
juz came back from my dive. totally pooped. so mayn things to write... so little energy... but something i tink of imptance....
God's Forgiving Grace
My first two dives weren't 'fantastic' cos i was nervous n trying to get accustomed to the feeling of being underwater again. Subsequent dives i slowly got time to appreciate what i'm seeing all around me intermittently (when i'm sure i wldn't sink/'over-float') *laughs* i thot 'hey finally i get to really appreciate wat God has created under the sea too!'...
On my way home, thots of the comments my student came back briefly. Suddenly, it occurred to me (i believe God told me *laughs*) that... i have to forgive that gal. Its not a huge 'sin' she committed against me, cos its not even about me. BUT, i have to forgive her.. to make the decision to let it go. I asked, how to forgive? Letting go and letting God have everything that has happened. The disappointment.. the hurt.. Continue to do my best and love and nurture as He has placed me there for.
Then, I heard something along this line... what you have seen... the corals, the fish, etc etc, the beauty of what has been created... is a reflection of the Creator. Let it serve as a reminder that... as He is beautiful, as He is good, and as He is faithful as the creation has so testified, He has forgiven our sins. Creation testifies to His goodness and forgiveness. Meaning, if and when i feel hurt again, maybe i'll just have to tink of the things i saw this weekend? and remember His forgiving grace on me... and so i have to forgive and entrust my gals to him...
All glory to God....
(ARGH... so many things more to write.. but i shall sleep!!)
God's Forgiving Grace
My first two dives weren't 'fantastic' cos i was nervous n trying to get accustomed to the feeling of being underwater again. Subsequent dives i slowly got time to appreciate what i'm seeing all around me intermittently (when i'm sure i wldn't sink/'over-float') *laughs* i thot 'hey finally i get to really appreciate wat God has created under the sea too!'...
On my way home, thots of the comments my student came back briefly. Suddenly, it occurred to me (i believe God told me *laughs*) that... i have to forgive that gal. Its not a huge 'sin' she committed against me, cos its not even about me. BUT, i have to forgive her.. to make the decision to let it go. I asked, how to forgive? Letting go and letting God have everything that has happened. The disappointment.. the hurt.. Continue to do my best and love and nurture as He has placed me there for.
Then, I heard something along this line... what you have seen... the corals, the fish, etc etc, the beauty of what has been created... is a reflection of the Creator. Let it serve as a reminder that... as He is beautiful, as He is good, and as He is faithful as the creation has so testified, He has forgiven our sins. Creation testifies to His goodness and forgiveness. Meaning, if and when i feel hurt again, maybe i'll just have to tink of the things i saw this weekend? and remember His forgiving grace on me... and so i have to forgive and entrust my gals to him...
All glory to God....
(ARGH... so many things more to write.. but i shall sleep!!)
Friday, September 03, 2004
Thursday, September 02, 2004
woman in black...
or almost...
wore my dark grey long dress... black covered shoes... hair tied up in black scrungee...
one student commented to another one... she looks like a married woman today...
yeah.. maybe black widow? *mua ha ha*
my English paper just came back, vetted, major changes to be done....
exhausted...
wore my dark grey long dress... black covered shoes... hair tied up in black scrungee...
one student commented to another one... she looks like a married woman today...
yeah.. maybe black widow? *mua ha ha*
my English paper just came back, vetted, major changes to be done....
exhausted...
Wednesday, September 01, 2004
Food Glorious Food....
its Teachers' Day today.
Had been 'in touch' with food a lot lately.. meaning... ha ha ha... the weighing scales are starting to creak under my weight. Yesterday during Teachers' Day celebration it was makan makan... in the evening, met up w Ana and makan makan. Tis morn went for a conference and makan makan... still makaning the stuff the kids baked for us too. lol
Besides food so wat have i been up to?
1. went crazy over the last weekend and monday night marking to meet the deadline for CA submission.
2. Teachers' Day celebration was... hmm... lets say most of us teachers were trying to keep awake during the 'concert'.
3. Was trying to keep awake for the Christian Teachers' Conference tis morning.
4. perpectually tired...
Looking forward to my dive trip this coming weekend!! :)
This is my life story... boring...
Had been 'in touch' with food a lot lately.. meaning... ha ha ha... the weighing scales are starting to creak under my weight. Yesterday during Teachers' Day celebration it was makan makan... in the evening, met up w Ana and makan makan. Tis morn went for a conference and makan makan... still makaning the stuff the kids baked for us too. lol
Besides food so wat have i been up to?
1. went crazy over the last weekend and monday night marking to meet the deadline for CA submission.
2. Teachers' Day celebration was... hmm... lets say most of us teachers were trying to keep awake during the 'concert'.
3. Was trying to keep awake for the Christian Teachers' Conference tis morning.
4. perpectually tired...
Looking forward to my dive trip this coming weekend!! :)
This is my life story... boring...
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