had my hand surgery today... so tis is just a feeble attempt to 'pen' down my thots... too many thots... too few fingers... altho i must say i m improving leaps n bounds in terms of the speed i type 'single-handedly'....
The Surgery
It was an 'interesting' experience... well, i'm not called an 'experience-junkie' for no reason. not a comfy experience (can b really tiring n to somewhat painful exp)... but i'm pretty grateful cos in a sense... now i can noe wat pple feel n go thro hen they undergo surgery... sure, mine's a minor surgery... but i'd rather learn it thro a minor surgery than a maj op!!
The nurses were really nice pple. I was so extremely blur... The sensations i felt on my hand were really weird at the different parts of d surgery. Sometimes its as if my hands were raised over extended periods of time resulting in shoulderache, at other timesit was pins n needles, yet in the final section, it felt like lead... so dense n heavy... At d end of d surgery, my entire arm was... lol.... blue? black? just looked horrid. lol... n wat was d first thing i did when i got off the operating table? I 'punched' the nurse!!! lol... well see, they were helping me put my hands thro d gown n my hand fell under d control of gravity (i've lost control n sense of my entire limb), n.... 'punched' her on her face... i was really apologetic abt it... tho we all laughed n made a joke out of it... d next time i punch someone with my bandage still on... i can claim d loss of cobtrol over my limb. lol... hmm.... which student will suffer? mua ha ha ha...
in any case, d surgery was 'more than my expectations'. i was expecting a minor minor op... just turn up, sit there, 30 mins n we r done.... but NO..... i had to remove my nail polish... lenses... put on d gown... etc etc... b underobservation for n hr... etc etc... n it took like at least 3 hours??? still... it wasn't bad cos i noe my Daddy was w me... so it was just... a procedure... and n experience....
I'm proud of myself... I'm happy w my life... I'm not settling tt easily
for turning up for d surgery by myself (urm.... God comes under a different category)... frpm d beginning til d end in going to d phrmercym going home n all, i felt proud of myself... for being 'brave' n 'independent'. alrite, some may say.. "cheap thrill...." but it meant quite a bit to me. *smile* this sense of achievement of being independent coupled w how fulfilling i feel my life has been makes me realize tt i m so satisfied w my life rite now tt... seriously... 'i dun need a guy'. dun get me wrong... wat i mean is tt.. i m not gonna juz settle for a guy whom i like... its gotta b more than tt... s in, i will only give up my 'swinging' status only if being w d other party makes my life juz s fulfilled, if not more... okiez... i hear pple disagreement... but tis is juz my view!! in any case, sure, how do u define fulfilment rite? i'm not getting into tt... but in essence, i'm not juz settling tt easily.... sounds a litl feminist oredi? lol (den again, i'm such an emotional n sentimental freak tt if i chamge my stand, dun use tis to hold against me!!! lol)
The things we take for granted
Try the following:
1. Brush your teeth with your left hand if you r a right hander, and vice versa;
2. well, first you have to squeeze d toothpaste onto ur toothbrush;
3. Type an email with ONE hand;
4. Take your dinner only with a fork using your 'minor' hand.
alrite. no one will try them... but trust me, its a big big hassle. do you noe how masny mins hv passed since i started on tis entry? (yeah, its a long entry, but typing w one hand really aggravates it?) it takes me forever to shower now? i can no longer multi-task, typing n eating at d same time? n d list goes on....
okiez. i'm getting bored myself. d entry is getting too long... i'm tired... its 50mins since i begun working on this... i cant believe i manage to 'pen' down my many thots for today!!! hooray... enough... period.
Monday, April 26, 2004
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