What is my aim in life?

A fren posed me this question yesterday. He asked me "What is your aim in life?"....

I like to say "it is to glorify God... that is my chief purpose in life." Sometimes though, there are just so many distractions... so... many... at this point in my life for example, i don't noe how i'm glorifying God.. in fact, i must say that i'm not even making an effort to... am just living from day to day... assignment after assignmnet... meetings after meetings.. Glorifying God is THRO all these... but .... no.... i haven't... :(

Went for a jog after chicken curry for dinner. (I cooked it again!! this time finally i'm satisfied with the final product!! ha ha)... it was a bad idea.. i knew it was a bad idea even before i started.. but... sometimes human are just so good at deceiving ourselves.. to throw out rational thots and be stubborn ... thro self-deception doing what is not... wise.. *chuckle*.. that's me...

BUT, the run was good (not physically-wise... lol)..was tinking quite a bit during my run. (rather than staying in front of the comp all the time talking to pple, fixing my blog site or checking emails.. or typing lesson plans!! ) How do I glorify God? i asked myself.. by loving people... then i asked... what is love? can anyone really define wat is love? so many people are seeking for love.. all kinds of love.. for affection.. for attnetion... but at the end of the day.. wat is love? why do people want love? is it because it is woven into our DNA genetically? is it because we are self-centered and want love? how do we love people? i noe the 'theologically-sound' answer would be that people want love because the Creator is love.. and He had created human to love and be loved. How do we love? By pouring out our lives to love others with Christ's love... but sometimes.. applying it to the world doesnt' seem so easy.. when one has to struggle with meeting the demands in life and fighting the self-centredness to care for oneself... now i question... why do i care for my frens? why do i care for my students, my nie frens, my brothers and sisters in Christ, my pastors, my family and simply.. people... who do i do that? how do i fail in doing that? (i noe the answer... when i'm not in the Vine.. *sigh*)

Back to the run... outside my thoughts. It was good because I bumped into some of my MPSS students, and they chose to call me!!! These were from my notorious Sec 1F and 1G classes... out of which I did not teach a single thing in my 6 months with them during music class!! I remember SF too. I think she hated me in the beginning.. or at least.. she was an attitude gal!! now they are really nice.. i wonder whether its because i have stopped teaching them.. *chuckle* i really wonder wat good i've done in their lives... *ponder* but being able to be acknowledged as their ex-teacher and not have them hide away from me certainly made my day!! Gave me a bit of spur to teach the Sec 3 classes who are giving my problems in PY. .. but of course.. realistically speaking.. i still ahve to ask... how......?

Well... enough of rattle. dun even noe wat i just talked about.. just some random thots... so what is my aim in life? i still like to say "to glorify God"... am i doing anything to achieve this aim of my life? ...... ...... ..... .... ...... .....

Back to lesson plans for monday.....