its a mad rush.....

finally, i got to get back my pc from sim lim. did that in the morn... the guy there told me its the drivers and bios problem.. watever those mean.. all i wan is a stable system.. tt's all... :)

next stop, to S and HQ's wedding. The two of them had been tog for 8 long years!! since we were in jc!! usually i'll be overjoyed to witness the holy matrimony of my frens. but somehow... well, i am still happy for them, to watch them make the solemn vows before God... yet.... i question what on earth marriage is all about. it was my ambition to be a good wife and mother when i was young *blush*... *chuckle*... but today, i'm question this thing called marriage. suddenly, i dun understd y pple wanna get married. its so much work... so much sacrifice... loss of independence and 'freedom'... so much accountability... i tink i'm getting a little confused about the world's definition of marriage and what its supposed to be? maybe its the guys i've been in contact with... but i can't bring myself to believe in this sort of binding love now. *chuckle* still.. i'm happy for them.... to find this lasting love til the end of their lives... blessed by God and to be blessing to others...

it was to the ML youth meeting then. Three of my gals were away cos of camp or school. Well, combined the grp with Pamy's. At the end of the discussions, we broke into our smaller groups to share. I must say, every time i drag my feet to the meetings.... esp on sat afternoons, so so precious... but i always leave the meetings feeling happy... and proud of them. :) this week was no exception.. .:) so fairly :) now... maybe its their young but innocent passion to want to know God more... I tink with age, sometimes there are so many more distractions, so many more 'strings-attached' to our relationships to God... i dunno... but its good to see the childlike passion.... :) no wonder Jesus said the children will enter His kingdom... because.. all they see... is God... all they wan.. is God...

so finally its back home.. fixing up the comp... and here i am.... next after i post this is to TEST the system.. to see if that guy really did wat he should.. *fingers-crossed* and yeah.. i have to do something about being so 'addicted' to the internet. i have become so dependent to it.. spending way too much time in front of it!! it is a good tool to build relationships and care for my frens.. but... hmm... i tink its affecting me adversely a little oredi.. esp whenever i come online hoping to see some frens online.. only disappointed when they are not ard... die lah die lah...