I look to the hills... where does my help come from....

my help comes from the LORD, Maker of heaven and earth.....

i cannot stay silent anymore. because i have to face whatever i have to... not because i have no choice... but because i noe this is part and parcel of what the LORD has put in my life. There will be many trials, and tests, and difficult times (or so i define them)... but that doesn't mean I'll have to fear and suffer before each one of them... because I have a God who is far greater than all these, who has already planned such that all these will be meaningful and purposeful.

i do not do my best for my nie sup. i do not perform for him. rather, i do this for God and for the students, so that they can understand... so that they can learn... why do they need to learn market gardening for? i have no idea.... but at least they can learn to appreciate what they eat around them.. and of course, all the skills involved in learning to classify and evaluate, etc... this is what i have to impart to the students, not for my sup to see how capable (or boo boo) i am, but so the students can develop... somehow...

the calm before the storm? it is still the calm.... the storm? well, whatever the storm, I know my God is walking beside me, even in the sea where waves rise, He will still hold my hand.. if only i have faith and not doubt..... if only I look to Him and not the waves..... :)