its been a long long day....

started day at 6 as per normal. got extra relief duties thanks to my CT who volunteered me for an extra one!! met a challenging kid first thing in the morn when i caught hold of him before i entered my relief class. he ran off during my music lesson the other day when i sent him out to stand cos he was very disruptive. this boy really has an attitude.. he can stand in front of me and still think that he did nothing wrong!! giving me that $%&*^ look and insisting that he doesn't know the reason why i sent him out the other day. this boy.. a really tough nut to crack. nah.. not gonna talk abt him.... sorry to say.. he's not worth upseting my day....

went to 312 to go thro their common test paper. they got on pretty well with me today, except.... still a little rebellious and mischevious... but i tink i managed to win some of the gals.. so that's not too bad. one of the boys told me outside the classroom after class that 'the class will be fine with u after a few weeks lah.......' BUT I AINT GOTTEN A FEW WEEKS!!! nonetheless.. its an improvement and i thank God for that.

Contact time til 5. hung ard bedok interchange while waiting to go for my ballet class. bought THREE dresses in a go!! i tink i must be mad...

Ballet class was exceptionally tiring today. I think tt's cos i started off tired myself. every min dragged by.. i felt like i was taking my driving lesson.. tick tock tick tock... so slow.... i was feeling so lethagic throughout the two hours... this is the last lesson of this level... i'm still considering if i shld continue next week onwards with the next level which lasts 12 weeks. Ballet will do my good i figure... all the stretching and time off to do brainless things... but its really tiring... esp having to set aside the end of a day to travel down to do it.. doesn't help.... its really quite physically demanding!!! sometimes i do dread certain sets of sequences cos they are really tough and painful!!! lol... but.. somehow.. ballet trains my discipline.. and hopefully one day helps me in my balancing!! To continue or not to continue... sigh....

After ballet, went with SJ my ballet fren to a place near mph to have a little wine and some finger-food.... its a really nice place to sit down and talk. PRetty quiet... fairly decent music.. nice ambience.. really perfect for catching up... now i've found a new haunt besides coffee club. :) We had a really nice talk... almost two hours i tink.. Was just sharing with SJ abt some of the problems or knots i'm facing or struggling in my life now... she's a really nice listener.. sigh.... but no matter how much i tell her, i'll have to face up to the problem myself and be tough to myself now so as not to suffer later... i noe that..... i'm good with rationales i think... but..... its easier said than done... *sigh*

now i'm really exhausted... physically, mentally, emotionally, and perhaps spiritually too... life isn't as simple as when i was a kid.... :) it gets more complex by the day.... or did i just 'complexify' it myself?