keiki died....

my last entry on keiki was 'keiki and cookie made me smile'.... but now....

at the same time as i'm doing this entry, my student just told me she failed her geography. feeling confused as to how i should feel... tink abt my favorite keiki or console my student. anywayz, things are going on quite well for the moment. had a good rest in jakarta... thankfully my heart matters are really quite settled by the grace of God.. but just when i'm happy, came back home wanting to write a happy entry, my baby died.

keiki... i wanted to write about my two babies.. about how their personalities are so different.. so adorable.. neva got round to doing it.. and now... alittle too late... but keiki.. so active, a little like me... whenever it can climb, it will climb. it will try to crawl to the highest height available, be it the stalk of the kangkong, or watever... it is always so active, constantly on the move... but no more shall it move. haven't playd with them since i went to jakarta on friday. thot i'll finally have the time to play with them tom. but when i took them out to clean up just now, keiki wasn't moving. i thot it was asleep. i tried to disturb it... but... the eyes remained closed... after trying for a while, i began to fear... and after a while, my fear came to pass... it is gone.... *sob* fortunately my mom happened to be beside me... she just took it and threw it away... i cldn't have done it. to her, its no point looking at it cos i'll just be more sad... but i'm still sad... :( its my baby... *sob* i should hv suspected something when i thot its shell was a little soft. but it had always been soft to begin with... could i have prevented it from dying so soon? *SIGH* now poor cookie is by herself. i dun tink i'll ever find any other terrapin like keiki. out of the four that i've owned, she's my favorite. but she's with me the shortest too.... :( i'm a terrible caretaker...

think i'll postpone some other things i wanna talk about. they are good stuff.. but can't tink of them for the moment...