in the time of pain....

literal pain that is.. to the point i was lying on the bathroom floor.... yeah gross...

but when i was on the floor.. wat was going thro my mind? there wasn't anything i cld tink of... wat had been bothering me for weeks.. or months? at least.. cumulated and exploded over the last few days... suddenly those did not matter anymore.

i was just trapped.... in the bathroom... all by myself... was too weak to call sandfly i was supposed to meet... too weak to get up and out to get panadol and rest on bed instead... just feeling the pain... the only good thing that was there... that i knew.. was tt... i was 'all by myself' with God.... and He was the only One i cld call out to... tink was there for a good half an hour.. *laughs* (yeah, i laugh NOW)...

finally manage to stagger out... seeing black spots all over.. grabbed some panadol... and plopped myself on bed... managed to call sandfly (thankfully her's was the last no. i dialled cos i cln't bring myself to find anyone's name to call)... got her to pray for me.. ...

still feeling weak... but the time when i was all alone in the bathroom.. it was terrible.. but... it was special... i was forced into a situation where i was alone... and can look to none.. but on Him....

in any case, my christmas wish still remains the same. still dunno wats going on... ... ... ... ... just thot i shld record tt special moment.. which i still dunno the purpose of...