can bear read the papers anymore

i always tell my kids to read the papers. to noe wats going on. to understd the world better rather than from the textbook.

earthquakes. tsunami. earthquakes. floods. typhoons. hurricanes. volcano eruption.

they just kept repeating themselves. death tolls rising. international aid poured in. but death tolls continue to rise. pple continue to suffer. y? poor infrastructure. bottleneck on the mgmt part.

after reading case after case just over the past 1.5 years, i cldn't bring myself to read yet another of these again this morn. without looking at the headlines, i noe wat is to be expected. death toll. homeless pple. pple with no food. aid available but inaccessible. hungry people. families torn apart due to death. can bear read anymore.

suddenly i wished i took up the medical profession and got more interested in science in my sec / college days. those days, i neva knew where my passion lies. who'd want a teacher at these scenes? like hello? teach wat teach? suddenly i wished i learnt more crisis management stuff.

den again, i do realize after my crash course reading for my rescue dive course from last night til this pm that... i cant do medical stuff. just to rem four terms on lung overexpansion.. like .. erm.. air embolism, some mediasta... some... stra... i dunno wat... and some... pnuem... something... see u get the point. but but... i make good assistant and support! ah ha! maybe i shld be a nurse!

sigh... but seriously, i wished i was there... and in the position to help. sadly.... for now, i'm just gonna stay away from the papers to a while. i hope it wldn't be too long tho.. cant avoid it forever...