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Went for the Jazz at d beach w FL again yesterday. Tis time round, they were doing latin groove. Its nice except it gets tiring w all the upbeats throughout the evening. Smooth jazz was better last weekend. Anywayz, met KV again. It was quite farnie. He posed a simple qns: how was the week tt's past? It was a tough qns to ans! All i cld manage was a: had my ups n downs....

thankfully... downs were less... so i'll start w downs...

Downs:
1. Been exhausted.... even with sleep... strange.
2. Was demoralized for a brief moment.... related to work. When u feel tt effort put in wasn't given due recognition... anywayz,.... brief moments... passed....

Ups:
1. Did my first long distance of abt 5km finally at east coast on friday evening. Crowded beach. I realized tt major changes (at least to me) had taken place! The fencing and vegetation at the stretch between the seafood restaurant and the lagoon food center has been removed! Pedestrains route has changed. Previously blocked by the fencing... it is now a spacious and open area. Good or bad? I don't know. Just different. Gone were all my memories of running beside the cycling track w all the different pple.... Wats 'up' abt tis? i realized.... i thank God that i am blessed w the health to run... i am blessed w the health to come out and appreciate east coast...

2. Over these two weeks i hv been encouraged by my new frens, FL's "CH" frens mainly. i hardly noe them... but the joy of the Lord that they have are infectious. They dun talk abt it... but....its something one senses... i might join FL for her tues CG (she claims its CG tho i'm like... ITS 50-pple BIG! its NOT a CG). Timing is quite 'gd' actually... i hv been 'feeling' i shld join a grp somehow... i did not say anything.... and FL came along... it seems God has put these jazz meetings in place.. cos last week, i did not plan to go for tt session. Half the time i wanted to back out, go home, even on the journey. somehow, i managed to turn up.... noe these pple.... i hv no idea wats in store. slowly i'm 'missing' the passion i use to hv... slowly i'm 'missing' living life w purpose... now entirely clear abt the purpose yet... but... slowly.... in any case, my priority is to pass my first aid course first. lol....

3. i m reminded that i hv been bought by the blood of Christ. That doesn't just mean i'm saved. That also means i'm a co-heir of His kingdom. That also means i'm His daughter. That also means He's my fren. That also means i live the 'now' in view of the 'after'.... which is wat got me out of the demoralized state. *laughs* let's see how long tis will last.

Meanwhile its Monday again. My prayer Abba is that You will help me to face it w joy, not to take work as burden, but as opportunities You have blessed me with to bless. I ask Abba that You will give me the wisdom to deliver knowledge... wisdom to discern.... wisdom to guide. Amen.